am i skinny?

i was just at the ER today….freaking out. my mom just told me im going to timblerine knolls on FRIDAY,. holyshit, im scared. its in chicago! illinois! i live in pennsylvania! ughh im really scared. i know i lost alot of weight since residential. i went from 87 to 95 to 98 to 105 to 112 to 123 down to 114 to 109 to 103…… shit..im scared theyre gonna make me fat. i already hate my body but seeing the weigh ive lost in the last couple weeks made me REALLY happy. but i still wanna be skinnier. and it doesnt seem like thats going to happen. ever. i mean, today i fit back into my old jeans that wouldnt even go up to my hips after renfrew. sooo…i really know this is dangerous. im not eating like anything or drinking much at all. in the hospital they gave me and IV and weighed me and shit. and when they took my blood testt, my blood was practically BLACK. scary shit….i dont wanna be so far away from home. not being able to see my beautiful girlfriend. ahh:( i know this is the same place that Demi Lovato went, and she’s done so well. i just dont feel strong. im weak and i passed out today after therapy. im going SUPER downhlll and i wish i could change and “just eat” but everyone who struggles with ED knows thats not even close to possible.